Disorders, by Fear Of Missing Out

Disorders

by Fear Of Missing Out

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1.	Disorder 4: Empty 04:42	lyrics	buy track
Inside, a hunger grows Just closer to the prize The pangs, no more a surprise So dizzy cold and frail But, it means I’m doing well I am lying, I’m lying to you I’m doing well my mind will tell My body begs me to end this hell To be thin Fill this void within This sense of control is sin Skinny, is all that I want to be It’s become my one, true voice This is not a choice It’s an illusion of control that's screaming out “You’re worth more hungry”, loud Pretty, skinny, small I’m supposed to stand tall Can I be that strong Trying to hold on I swear on Ana’s words On the reflection I see I’ll fight until I’m free From her binding tyranny She has this voice that calls out my name It pulls at me each day And it tries to drive me insane Hear me now Ana listen Because I won’t listen to you No not any, anymore I have won this war Skinny, all I wanted to be It became my one, true voice This is not a choice I had to fight and had to beat her and I won this war and she is out
2.	Disorder 3: Holocaust 05:34	lyrics	buy track
Unrecognized, I can tell, My thoughts are victims. Shameful eyes Just see Phantoms scavenge me. I’m corpse Nothing without lost And I'm The cage that holds A living holocaust. I've failed in my senses, yeah And now fail to embrace myself. When voices tell me I'm stolen, When voices tell me I'm scared, Why can't I rebuke? Why just forsaken? My one half truly admits To be consumed by silence that kills me And let me be Holocaust Ohhhh... Where'll my distortions go? If I won't befriend The voices that Claim to know. Unrecognized, I can tell My thoughts are victims. Don't tell me I'm a broken piece; I've been through more than a hundred degrees. Don't tell me To comprehend That this overload has Defined my end. This a battle up and against myself And to see right through this phase, your pride should suffocate. Mine is the shame that was confronted By savage, fierce, fatal-figured disruptions. These voices tell me I'm stolen, These voices tell me I'm scared And I can't rebuke nor forsake them... My one half truly admits To be consumed by silence that kills me, Let me be Holocaust
3.	Disorder 2: The Veil 05:31	lyrics	buy track
Lower the veil Paint over the tulle With plagiarized lacquers Of their affectations Pray to abrade Through rotoscoped days Wit) some lingering semblance... Nervios exaltados It soon becomes clear That this confounding minstrel Must come to an end Come to end When can it end? Please (just) let this end Just end Pulling back the veil Glance into the mirror Hair, color and skin Such a senseless portrayal What can there be? Everything else unseen Please let this end This sycophantic need A performance on a razor’s edge While the real slips away While the real slips away We were left in a room No time for rehearsal Put on this skin and dance the dance until One day the skin becomes your own becomes your own Days go by The tighter it grows But not how you thought Suddenly so hard to breathe It’s not how I thought it'd be Won’t somebody please Get this thing off of me In a moment of desperation I tried to peel away the mask Bits of papier-mâché and skin Strands of yarn and tufts of hair I tried to scrape away Saw dust and gangrene But the skin beneath Had gone away And everything unseen Had already decayed Beneath And now I have nothing Beneath Beneath Nothing except A mask
4.	Disorder 1: Over controlling demon 07:25	lyrics	buy track
Welcome, my friend To no man's land A pristine battlefield where light and darkness face each other every day, every hour, every minute, upon agreement of sweeping all blood under the carpet, hide chaos underneath an order blanket. I am trapped inside the walls of a prison I have created (myself) Giving a smile reject the people who try to help me (out) Haunted by doubts That push me into a world of black or white I'm starting to drown Sinking in this mental quicksand Trying to get perfection Seduced by the swindle of control Frozen by the damnation that I chose Help me to fight This over-controlling demon. Don't let him drive my life. I can't reach your hand There's an abyss in the cracks in the pavement and I am scared to jump. I know my life is a mess still, I'll rebuke you for every slightest mistake sorry, I know it's not fair I judge the others' behaviour 'cause I hate myself. Count to three (One, two, three) and it's all right Count to three (One, two, three) and it's all right Count to three (One, two, three) but it's never right Help me to fight This over-controlling demon. Don't let him drive my life. You say that surety is a lie I should stop using my mind (and) start using my eyes Don't try to question my sight But all I can see is the risk of dying alone without someone beside me. Just one more check
5.	Disorder 5: Everlasting Omnent Souls 04:39	lyrics	buy track
I'm ok Thank you for asking No one knows the pain I hide within Last night, you know I was, laying in bed Quietly, staring My life playing out in front of me What a mess If I leave How many tears will roll for me, say my name? Please explain it to me. How many footprints I've left? How many secrets I've kept or many scars I have left? Please answer these questions of mine. Remembering the names In all silent prayers Shackled lives of innocent souls Here we are riding, riding this wave in a death zone Asking for patience I know When your strength just let go Don't be locked up or compelled to this world Everlasting, omnent souls (It's my life) Everlasting omnent souls (I claim it) Set me free from this world (I own it) Break the shackles of depression (I'll survive)Sooner or later We all stumble and fall Hide in our rooms Behind a smile Don't give up this fight You are not alone
6.	Disorder 7: Rewind 04:58	lyrics	buy track
Look I'll tell you once My biggest fear Is abandonment Be Cliche Black. White, No Gray Pretend you're okay Tonight isolate Whispers No time to sympathize Here's the doc, he says: Great she’s still alive Worse I told you I hate who I am You'd rather watch TV Programs Listen Validate me Otherwise I Think you hate me worry rising not surprising Intervention Hide the sharp objects, lock all the doors Entire life flawed Described vaguely My experiences are not pleasant Fear reaction Cant trust anyone Self-destructive with little remorse Careless, hopeless enough to pay the Ultimate cost Ignore the lies Breathe and relax Let yourself enjoy Life for the first time. I am not scary I am toxic Let’s rewind Therapy symbols Only we can understand Healing with grounding Fragile like glass beforehand
7.	Disorder 6: Mindful 05:57	lyrics	buy track
Everyday My struggle is real You see today Death lurked at me You see today I have no fight left This fight is mine And mine alone Substance is for me a serene way out I've called for help But Silence followed No helping hand There's good and there's bad Shall I cry Or Just die Hell or heaven Playing out Inside me What now? Help me Save me Save me From this war There's good and there is bad There's good in all of us We can't deny the fact that there is hope We can't deny the fact it's pure survival So tell me friend whatever secrets you still hold and how you have survived till now? Who can understandour minds, our way of thinking? Can't the world see, what we are going through? Tell me, do you understand? Just tell me, I'm not alone in this hell hole, I find myself? Please you see, this fight is not mine alone. It affects everyone, everyone, around me. Shadows That follow me around Everywhere I go Everywhere I can't escape Sometimes can't tell, reality, from real life Fainted memories Help me from my mind!

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7 progressive metal songs, with lyrics written and illustrated by people with different mental disorders.

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released September 4, 2019

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Fear Of Missing Out GA, Spain

"Disorders" is a unique album: each of the songs talks about a different mental disorder, and the lyrics are written by people living with those mental health problems.

Fear Of Missing Out's progressive metal debut shows a wide range of emotions, from soft-rock to metal. ... more

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